So I’ve been feeling very strange lately. Not just mentally strange but physically too.

A very large part of me wants to just stop everything I’m going and go away to somewhere really hot and just relax. But I have noticed that over the last so many weeks that has not happened. My weekend is the only days I have to do this fully but I always seem to be doing something else, which is not relaxing.

Another part of this is that there is so muh I want to do, not major things but just things. But I haev no willpower or drive to do it. I keep putting things off till the last moment or just not doing them.

On the physical side of this: I have no appetite for food. I eat because I know I should but I don’t enjoy it. It’s like I have to force myself to swallow and when I do eat sometimes I feel like I’m going to be sick.

I’m not sure what’s wrong with me but I have a mild feeling that I might have depression again. I hope not. I seriously hope not.