So I’ve been feeling very strange lately. Not just mentally strange but physically too.

A very large part of me wants to just stop everything I’m going and go away to somewhere really hot and just relax. But I have noticed that over the last so many weeks that has not happened. My weekend is the only days I have to do this fully but I always seem to be doing something else, which is not relaxing.

Another part of this is that there is so muh I want to do, not major things but just things. But I haev no willpower or drive to do it. I keep putting things off till the last moment or just not doing them.

On the physical side of this: I have no appetite for food. I eat because I know I should but I don’t enjoy it. It’s like I have to force myself to swallow and when I do eat sometimes I feel like I’m going to be sick.

I’m not sure what’s wrong with me but I have a mild feeling that I might have depression again. I hope not. I seriously hope not.

Today we sneaked out of work to get lunch out because this is the last Thursday Lesley will be in because as of Monday next week she will be off on Maternity Leave. So while we were out having our meal, Lesley flicked what she thought was a little burnt chip from her salad, but I watched as this tiny wee slug uncurled itself and began to quickly slide accross her spoon.

Well to say we were grossed out would be an understandment. So we all got new meals even mine didn’t have any salad in it I still got a new one. I got to say that’s probably the most memorable lunch I’ve even had. We were nice to the staff though we didn’t make a big fuss about it so nobody else got put off their meals.

I really want to get a bike. One because I miss bike riding. Two because I had to get rid of my old one cause it was a kid’s bike and three I’d like to teach Rachel how to ride. So I think I will buy one on Saturday. Not sure yet.

~Jennie

Just a small little post to put down a little of what is happening in my life. I’m working in Port Glasgow since last Tuesday. And today I sat my Driving Practical Test and I passed with only 4 minors. I was so nervous because at one point I turned into a street and a bin van was right there and I couldn’t go through. I was thinking ’should I do through?’. Luckily the Tester guy Mike told me to just wait rather than reverse out or squeeze through.

Also when doing my reverse park I lightly bumped the pavement. I tried to sort it and then scuffed the pavement on the second try. But because the rest of the drive was good I passed!

See you later!

I have been noticing things a lot recently. Like that it seems as though Females are losing that thing that makes them Feminine. I have seen many females not willing/or unable to be feminine. They trade in the ‘damsel in distress’ role for the ‘heroine’. They think that being a woman is a weakness rather than a strength. They act like men for the most part but still look like women. When did that happen? When did it change that females wanted to be like men, who throughout history have not treated females the proper way?

Now I’m not saying I personally dislike butch/more man like females, I’m just pointing out that the world in certain cultures has done a complete turn on itself. What is the reason for this? I’m not 100% sure but I think Feminism did start the change in the way women thought of themselves. I’ve been doing some research in the area of Feminism so I have a better picture of where they stand.

Now what do you think about when you hear the word ‘Feminist’? Personally I had thought of Women that were changing society so men and women were equal. I was happy to find out this was right. Although there are parts of Feminism that can give it a negative feeling. Misandy would be one of those things. Misandy is the hatred of males as a sex (man-hater). But this is not what Feminists want. They want an equal footing with men, not for women to be top-dog and men the underdog. But because a few Feminist’s that do hate men Feminism has had this negative idea put on it.

So in today’s society is it possible for men and women to have equal rights? Is it also possible for a woman to be strong but still be a woman?

The topic is open for debate/discussion. These are just a few thoughts and possible ramblings. I’d like to hear others views.

~Jennie

Well how to start…

Or what about why to start? Every journey needs motivation to start and continue on. So why have I started a blog?

Well one reason could be that I have more thoughts in my head than paper can hold. And a blog seems like a good idea. It can be a collection, organized for easy re-reading in the future instead of being found many years later and unreadable. Another reason could be that my previous blog was more to do with my writing and website than my actual life. It had bits in there but not deep thoughts, more like rants. My real reason for this blog would be that I feel I’m entering into a new stage in life. I have almost completely finished with University, I have a full-time job and I’m looking for different things than I used to. I want to mature but without being a complete adult and all the restrictions on fun that seems to have.

So that’s the why over, now the how to start? Well I think I’ve already laid that out nicely above. Another question would be what? What exactly will I be putting into this blog? For one God Stuff. In my previous blog I didn’t mention much about God and his affect in my life which I think is a shame because I know he plays a big part in it. The second would be to help me to understand why people are they way they are. I enjoy writing stories and it has always irritate me that my characters don’t always seem real. I’d like to learn why. This could be by a blog discussion either by myself or with others, I’m not sure. The third would be to put in Life Events, these can be major or minor events, things on my mind that have happened.

Well let’s all hope this blog is more productive than the previous one.

~Jennie

P.S. Picture above of the ballon was taken by me on the way to London.